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Bethany Joy Lenz

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Bethany Joy Lenzsays she was part of a “cult” for 10 years, and she’s mentally steeling herself to open up publicly about her experience.

TheOne Tree Hillalum told her former costars on Monday’s episode of theDrama Queenspodcast that she’d write a book about her experience in the undisclosed cult — which captured a decade of her life.

“I was in a cult for 10 years,” she toldSophia BushandHilarie Burton Morgan. “That would be a really valuable experience to write about, and the recovery — 10 years of recovery after that. So there’s a lot to tell.”

The actress added, “Also, I don’t know how much I can say because there are still people and legal things in place that make it more complicated for the timing of that. But I do write. I write all the time.”

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Though Lenz has never publicly identified the “cult” she was a part of, she speaks against other organizations that she sees as potentially problematic messaging. In 2021, Lenzcalled out the Mosaic Churchon her Instagram for alleged negative behaviors. “The hierarchy in this “church”, the level of abuse that I’ve consistently heard goes on behind the scenes and how everything centers around the Leader is textbook 101 of cults,” she wrote in an Instagram caption. “And usually, unless you’re in the inner circle, it’s much harder to spot.”

Lenz said she was only an attendee at the church “on and off for two years.”

source: people.com